It is Sunday night, getting geared up for one more week of treatment. Thank God it is only 3 this week. I have been down on the couch pretty much full time for the past week. I just have nothing left to work with! I have a really hard time sleeping so I think that is really my biggest problem. I take AMbien, Tylenol with Codeine, sometimes a little Nyquil, an antibiotic, and maybe even something else! Today I did take an Ambien with the Tylenol and got some really good rest. I felt better those 2 hours following my nap than I have in a long time. Clint has really taken over with the kids. We had a sleepover birthday party for Jesse yesterday and Clint set me up in a hotel room so I could relax. He is finding his groove with the boys I think. Side effects are getting more and more difficult to deal with. My neck is extremely burnt, and peeling as are my ears. The rest are things you don't want to read about, trust me. I am hoping for strength to get me through these next 3 days, then peace to get me through a little more rest. Everyone tells me it will take time to recover and I know that is probably true. I just feel like I have missed so much living this past year that I am ready to really live. I will probably post again in about a week.

It has been a trying few weeks. Radiation is no picnic, but it is almost over. My mom was here for 2 weeks to help and it was really great to have her here. She left Sunday morning so we are adjusting to life without her. I am terribly tired these days. My appetite is all but gone. Everything still tastes bad. The kids passed on a cold to me so I am up coughing half the night. Well, until yesterday. Yesterday I got some Tylenol with Codeine. Life is all of a sudden quite a bit more enjoyable! Sunday night I was wondering how I could possibly get through these next treatments. Today I am certain that I will make it to next Wednesday, and I may even laugh once or twice between now and then. This has been much harder on me than the Chemo, but it is so close to being over that I am a little giddy at times. Hard to believe that I have just 6 more treatments. I am getting a bunch of help now and I appreciate it all so much. There is no way I could do this without all of you pitching in. I have so much support, I feel so lucky to have you all. Thank you thank you thank you.

Well, I am half way through my 27 treatments and I am still somewhat vertical! Radiation is kind of kicking my ass. I am not really sick, I am just tired and I have a hard time swallowing. My salivary glands are being messed up so food just tastes horrible. Sugary things are really the worst. I can taste some salty things, but nothing REALLY tastes good. But, it is temporary, RIGHT? I have to keep telling myself that. The field of radiation actually touches the bottom part of my hairline on my neck so I am losing some hair. Apparently this type of hair loss is permanent, but as my hair grows longer it will cover it up. It was by far the worst hair loss I have had through the whole thing. Very strange. My shirts are just covered in this short hair. My mom is here so things are a whole lot better. She cooks and does laundry and anything else I need. The kids love having her here, too. Well, I guess that is enough for now. I am fine, just tired. I am getting very close...

Well, I think I had the flu last week and that is why I felt so crappy. This week is not nearly as bad and I am feeling like I can actually do this! What a relief. My attitude is better, I feel better, life is just better. My mom will be here next week to help out so that will be good. Everyone offering to help, thank you! I think I am ok, for now. The last 2 weeks is when I anticipate needing some help. My throat is a little sore, and I am a little tired. I did cut my hair off, it was really bad. It is now about 2 inches long on top and maybe an inch in back. I think that last time I had hair this short I was 2 years old. Can't say I like it, but it is very easy. Looking forward to it growing back. More later.