Yesterday was treatment #6, which should be the half-way point. Should being the key word. The Dr. told me yesterday that after the next treatment (May21) I will have another PET scan in Billings. After that, we will decide if 6 Cycles (1 cycle=2 treatments) will be enough or if we have to go for an additional 2 cycles, basically 2 more months of chemo. Obviously I am hoping for a good scan that shows very little tumor activity. I was upset at the thought of going through this for 2 more months, but I know I have to do whatever it takes to get better. I think I just need to start preparing myself for that possibility, and be grateful for modern medicine. Otherwise, my blood tests were all good again. Treatment went well, and I am completely exhausted! I think I could sleep 20 hours a day! I have loads of help with Dane and I am so thankful for all of you helping out. Physically, the weeks of treatment are draining and emotionally draining as well. But, at about day 8 I start to feel better and really I am more energetic than I have been in years. It feels so good to feel good again. By Monday morning, anxiety is hitting and I am more nauseous between 8am and treatment time than I am after the chemo. I guess just the thought of getting pumped with poison is not a great thing for me. But, I know that I want to live so I will continue this fight.
Clint and I leave for Puerto Rico on Tuesday. I am looking forward to some time relaxing and rejuvenating. Clint needs a break from his reality, too. I think these have been the hardest 10 months of my entire life. I know that life is never easy, but surely it will get a little less insane. And when that finally does happen, I will stop and take a breath and be happy in that moment.
5 comments:
You're an amazing woman, Elizabeth
thebossman
Liz,
We are praying for you, the bossman, and the boys. We have been keeping up with your blog and are with you in spirit. Hang in there and it will be over before you know it. Hope to see you this summer. We love you.
Uncle Bim and Aunt Mary
Good morning Liz. I was about to call you and then checked the blog. In my world view we are always living in chaos and need to expect that and then build systems- of friends,family, religious, medical- that allow us to not just survive but thrive in that chaos. Seems to me you are a systems builder and that means a survivor. I salute you and I celebrate you.
Hi Liz! Have a fabulous time on your trip--how could you not?! By the way, there's a group at St. Huberts who is praying every day for servicemen and their families, and they're praying for you. As are we. xxoo Connie
Liz,
What strength you have during these past 10 months. We who see you very day are just amazed. You are so blessed with friends and loved ones. We want you to know that we think of you and your family everyday. We hope you have a wonderful, restful, and fun time on your trip. Thinking of you and loving even more.
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